Because I love you so.

She said :
I promise to love you, through bad and good, sad and happy times. I promise to love you at all times. At 5 am, or whenever in the morning when you wake up for work. With your messy hair, sleepy and tired eyes.

And then during the time you leave for work, I promise to kiss you goodbye. And when you're rushing out, I promise to never forget to tell you that I love you, so that no matter how your day goes, you remember that I'm always gonna be there for you, as the warmth you need, the ease you need, the love you need, the care you need.

And later when you come back home from work, I promise to welcome you with a smile and a warm hug full of love, so that when you enter our home, you forget all the work stress and know that your day can't entirely be bad.

And finally, when you come to bed to sleep, I promise to hug you tight and cuddle with you, be in your arms, and cover you with sweet little kisses and let you know that I love you, through my eyes, through my words, through my hugs and kisses, so that when you finally fall asleep, you sleep happy, dream happy and wake up happy.

Because you know I love you so.

He said :
Wow. I love you so much my angel. I know my promises don't mean much. But I have just one promise I want to make. I promise the day we get married, I'm gonna take you to church, show you to everyone there and prove, that you're way way way better than them, than what they think of you. I promise that I will do anything and everything to make you happy when your're sad, to keep you happy forever. And that I'm yours... Now and forever more.

Because you know I love you so.

Ignorance is not bliss!

There comes a time when we all just lose our calm, our patience. There are millions of situations or people or things that bother us, but we stay mum, we ignore them because has other serious and IMPORTANT issues to offer us. So we keep ignoring and concentrate on the good parts. But then what do you do if it keeps happening and gets too much to take? How much do you ignore or can you ignore? And then finally when you react, you become the one that did the wrong thing. I mean, How dare you react? You are supposed to stay quiet and ignore it. You are supposed to act like nothing is wrong and go on with your life. Is that so hard for you to do, you numb skull? But, why is there a need for you to pretend like nothing is wrong? Why can't you just be upfront about things? If it's bothering you, well then it is bothering you. If you can't let go, well then you can't. Why do people expect YOU to be calm all the time? Why do people expect YOU to ignore things all the time? You don't have a say in things or what? You can't stand up for yourself when you know nobody else will? Well, you have to stand up for yourself, right? You can't just keep ignoring things when you know that something is not right. And when it happens to this one relationship you have which makes you happy, then what? You're supposed to ignore it and stay happy? Or are you supposed to put a stop to it and then stay happy? I don't think you can stay happy by ignoring some sadist person who keeps saying things to put you off and make you feel like you're in the wrong relationship. Yes, you can always ignore, but only if your ready to deal with the bunch of frustration it comes to you with in the end, because ignoring such things only add on to your frustration. That's exactly what happened with her too. Some sadist of a person keept messaging her, and she kept ignoring, not reacting. Not giving that person the reaction he/she wanted to see. So, that demon in human form kept messaging her, and she kept ignoring which only kept adding on to her anger, her frustration. Finally, when she reacted, she became the wrong person. She became the disturbing element. She realized that she should not have ignored anything at the first place, and instead she should have listened to her gut feeling but she chose to listen to others which did no good. Just like this, there are millions of things in our lives that we don't fight for, that we just ignore, but we don't realize that ignoring something like this can end up being a pain in the a**. I mean, such things can end up become a serious problem for us. Whoever said, "Ignorance is bliss", most probably was not even dealing with a real crisis. Because I believe that ignorance often brings you trouble and you wind up regretting all the things you ignored at the first place.

Dwelling on the best.

She just sits, staring at the ceiling of her room, trying to gather her thoughts, trying to gather her feelings. A lot has happened in her life over the past 9 months and she's trying to know, trying to decide, really trying hard what she thinks and believes. All her thinking power drained out over these past few months. She came to a phase where her mind is actually blank from a phase where she had an over storage of thoughts in her mind.                                                                  
So much happens in your life that you just block everything out, every thought. People question you, your existence, make you feel bad about yourself, try to take away this one person in your life you truly love and want to spend your life with. She really was badly tested. She had fights with him, almost everyday. Fighting with him killed her emotionally and mentally. She did not want to fight, she loved him. But everytime something happened, she lost all her patience, she lost all her mental peace, it suffocated her, it was too damn frustrating. She desperately wanted it all to end, not her relationship, but all the bad things that had a bad effect on her relationship with him. Then he told her, "baby, I love you. i don't want to lose you. Please don't let this affect you, this is something trying to break us." And she knew he was being honest, because there was an honest desperation for her in his voice.  
               She tried to put her thoughts in a diary. But everything that came out was negative. Not because she did not trust him, but because of all the negative happenings. Then, she decided letting all the negativity go and thinking about all the good things, all the positive things that happened in between all the negativity.
      Without taking much time, she realized that there were many good things that happened, many precious moments that she had shared with him. She forgot that whenever she was with him, whenever they met, there was no trouble, they were truly happy, in love. She forgot about all the times he gave her the strength to hang on. And most of all, in between all the negativity since the past nine months, she also did not notice one important thing, and that was... Nine months of negativity, nine months of fights, he never gave up on her, they never stopped loving each other. After every fight their love just grew for each other. Their bond just became stronger and stronger with time. And that's when she realized, that she's one stupid girl. She has all she wants, all she believes in right there with her, and she was letting the negativity ruin her when she had her strength right there with her.
                     She once told me, "you know love is the worst and the best thing that happens to us, we just have to choose what we dwell on, and I now decide to dwell on the best."

Not Easy!!

Life gets really tough when you suddenly find out that the one person you love doesn't really love you. All that person feels or felt for you was sympathy. Maybe because you had some problems and they thought that you'd be broken if they leave you. Yeah, sometimes you just over think and assume such things but sometimes all these things happen to be real. You just find out what that person really feels for you. And whatever that person feels, its not love. Call it care, call it sympathy, anything but not love. Yeah maybe you were spying on that person, checking on a few things they do because of your insecurities but you find out that your insecurities turned out to be real. Then what? You blame yourself for doubting on them and checking on them or you blame them? And on top of all that, if you find out that this person doesn't only NOT love you but loves his/her friend and that friend loves them back, then what? You feel like shit! Don't you? What do u believe now? Them telling you that they love you and not their friend? That they were irritated with you because of some stupid fight you had with them, so they said it out of anger or irritation or would you believe the chat you just read between them and their friend? It gets so complicated. What about your feelings that just got crushed? What about that heartbreaking feeling you get when you see your love telling someone else they love them and not you. How do you believe that person when they tell you they love you. You try hard, you really do to trust them, but!! The "but" stays. You see them crying, you see them fighting for you, to have you back in their life, you know they love you, but then every time they tell you they love you, you pause for a second and can't help but think of that moment when they told someone else they love them.

Things change. You decide to give your relationship another chance, but at the same time you put restrictions in their life. You start feeling insecure when you see them talking to that friend again and so you ask them to stop talking to that friend, and they listen to you and stop talking to them. All for your happiness, so that they don't lose you. But you feel like you lost yourself somewhere in here. You realize that you are restricting your love from doing things they like, from talking to people they like, you doubt, you let your insecurities grow. But what you really wanted to do was to take a chance, give your relationship a chance and trust them, learn to trust them and be happy but instead what you did was put a limit to their happiness and because of that your happiness comes to a stop. Why? Because you love them and if they are not happy, then how can you be happy? They stop telling you how they feel, especially if they are unhappy because of something because they feel it'll upset you. So they decide to not tell you.

Both of you think of the other person's happiness, but still things don't work. You end up fighting, crying, apologizing, and don't know what all you do. You love each other. You definitely do. But something just went wrong. What, you don't know. So what do you do? You don't know that too. All this, all the problems, just because of that one thing you found out, something they did by mistake, something they did out of anger or confusion.

What's the solution? It has to be love, for love heals everything I've heard. And so, if they both love each other, then things have to be alright. They try, try, try and try till things work. They fill in the pits on the road and work it out together to put a happy road to their life together. Well, its a matter of love. All kinds of complications creep in. So no matter what, the ones who get out of these complications together, strongly are the ones who are meant to be together. Its a difficult road to walk on, but such is life dearies!