For the first time in 6 months, she had nothing good to say about her relationship. A relationship is not a cake walk all the time. She should have known. Every kind of thought crossed her mind... "what if it doesn't work out", "what if I give up" , "I don't want to stay away from him", "does he really care", "do we actually have a future together", "how will I handle the distance"..with all of these crazy thoughts she thought its getting too complicated but with all these thoughts, she forgot the most important thing. That was the relationship they shared...the love they had between them. Was that not enough to have them handle the distance?? But for 6 years? she said...Is that not too long? But with their love...with the understanding...they should come out strong. But she went crazy thinking about him and the distance. Having to stay away from him for 6 years was not a good thought to have.
She knew he couldn't help it...she knew he was not at fault but she couldn't help being mad at him. She couldn't avoid all the thoughts messing with her mind and she took all the frustration out on him and she regretted it...she was sorry but she couldn't help it...she was just crazy. Why did love had to be so strong? Why did love had to be so difficult...so challenging? why did love had to test you like this? she thought and she didn't get an answer to any of her questions. And she got crazier. In the end, all she could do was cry. She cried it out. She cried it all out. She just wanted to feel better...get back to her normal self. It felt like she had wanted to cry since a long time. She thought crying would make her feel better..that crying will help her get all her frustration out. But it affected her health. She got a little unwell. Little high a temperature. Guess..thinking too much about things does spoil your health. So she thought..."fine, wait for 6 years and get married to him to spend time with him and don't over think about this now...don't spoil your mood...don't spoil your day...don't spoil your health...just be glad that you have him and get through these 6 years and then you get to be with him your entire life...eat his head after that...ruin his taste buds by serving him burnt and pathetic food...don't kiss him when he would want to or anything else more than that and just take all the 6 year frustration out on him like that..get back at him and he better not complain".
WOW...right?? She is one crazy girl....more than I am. All planned to give him a hard time and she was sure he won't complain...he's too good to do that. He could handle her at her worst..and this was nothing. So she came up with the idea of giving him a hard time in some other way...ha ha. I wish I could explain it in a better way but I'm just starting to try it. But anyways...she told him that she wanted to get things back to normal...that she didn't want to lose him...and he told her that he will not leave her. She knew that already.
After all....Distance means so little when someone means so much!!
