The Damned Distances!!

                                                           
For the first time in 6 months, she had nothing good to say about her relationship. A relationship is not a cake walk all the time. She should have known. Every kind of thought crossed her mind... "what if it doesn't work out", "what if I give up" , "I don't want to stay away from him", "does he really care", "do we actually have a future together",  "how will I handle the distance"..with all of these crazy thoughts she thought its getting too complicated but with all these thoughts, she forgot the most important thing. That was the relationship they shared...the love they had between them. Was that not enough to have them handle the distance?? But for 6 years? she said...Is that not too long? But with their love...with the understanding...they should come out strong. But she went crazy thinking about him and the distance. Having to stay away from him for 6 years was not a good thought to have.

                                       
               She knew he couldn't help it...she knew he was not at fault but she couldn't help being mad at him. She couldn't avoid all the thoughts messing with her mind and she took all the frustration out  on him and she regretted it...she was sorry but she couldn't help it...she was just crazy. Why did love had to be so strong? Why did love had to be so difficult...so challenging? why did love had to test you like this? she thought and she didn't get an answer to any of her questions. And she got crazier. In the end, all she could do was cry. She cried it out. She cried it all out. She just wanted to feel better...get back to her normal self. It felt like she had wanted to cry since a long time. She thought crying would make her feel better..that crying will help her get all her frustration out. But it affected her health. She got a little unwell. Little high a temperature. Guess..thinking too much about things does spoil your health. So she thought..."fine, wait for 6 years and get married to him to spend time with him and don't over think about this now...don't spoil your mood...don't spoil your day...don't spoil your health...just be glad that you have him and get through these 6 years and then you get to be with him your entire life...eat his head after that...ruin his taste buds by serving him burnt and pathetic food...don't kiss him when he would want to or anything else more than that and just take all the 6 year frustration out on him like that..get back at him and he better not complain".

WOW...right?? She is one crazy girl....more than I am. All planned to give him a hard time and she was sure he won't complain...he's too good to do that. He could handle her at her worst..and this was nothing. So she came up with the idea of giving him a hard time in some other way...ha ha. I wish I could explain it in a better way but I'm just starting to try it. But anyways...she told him that she wanted to get things back to normal...that she didn't want to lose him...and he told her that he will not leave her. She knew that already.
After all....Distance means so little when someone means so much!!
                         

                                               

Four days with HIM!! Finally!!

He came to Delhi on the 21st of October and gave her a call in the morning from the Delhi Airport!! She was so excited but couldn't say anything because of her dad sitting next to her!! Yeah, the parents don't know yet. So they start talking in the evening....both of them excited about finally meeting the next day!! She, literally, couldn't sleep because of her excitement!! Crazy, yeah!! Totally!!

The next morning she woke up..got ready...boarded the metro...met him at Janakpuri West!! They moment they met, they hugged each other....and the metro guy comes and says, "You are not supposed to hug publicly".  Not supposed to hug publicly?? Really??? That guy can go to hell!! She said to herself.
And then she turns to him.. nahh.. not the metro guy!! the guy she hugged!! and says.. "finally, we meet!!!
"yessss" he replies!! She went to a Church with him...the Church she has been going to with her mom since she was a kid. She liked going there and wanted to go with him too. They go to eat..the place was awesome! Though she didn't really eat anything. She was all happy with her shake...and he had to eat her stuff too!! That was no biggie for him.

Why do we have to go back? she thought. She really didn't want to leave. But then they had to! And she anyhow managed to convince him to meet the next day!! Phewww!! She had not planned anything for the day. All that she wanted was to meet him..all that he wanted was to meet her. Please...if you're reading this..don't be disgusted. This is what happens when you fall in love. You'll realize when it happens to you!! 
Again..as time passed by...they had to go back....she didn't want to leave..not that he wanted to but someone had to be stronger and they had to remember...he was in Delhi just for a few days. But she spoiled her mood on the way back. He was with her...he used to drop her till her metro station but she had totally spoiled her mood. Didn't hug him while leaving. She knew that would hurt but she still didn't hug him. She regretted it the moment she left...maybe it was too late for her to go back to him for the hug. She had to talk it out with him...she let all her feelings out in front of him through messages and he promised her that they'll meet again. She felt bad...she knew he had to spend time with his family but she couldn't help it. She knew she was being selfish..but she just wanted to be with him. Because after all, they were not going to meet for a long time after he left from Delhi.

Their third meet...and she meets two of his friends!! Not really bored but then they just didn't have any common topic to talk about. But then she still liked meeting them. They clicked a few pictures of him with her..again something they wanted for so long, a picture together and it came out nice!
And another meeting got over. They went back to their respective places and yes, she did hug him while leaving this time. And no bad mood.

Now, they knew it was going to be their last meet. Not that they were not going to meet ever...but the next meeting was not going to happen for a long time now. She wanted it to be good. It was good...they went for a movie...she finally ate something with him and they went to Barista. Spent some time together...and it was coming to an end...and she was starting to spoil her mood again but she had to be fine with it. She knew it would spoil his mood too. He dropped her to her metro station..they looked at each other..that was it..she had to leave. They hugged and yeah..a quite a tight hug. She got a rikshaw...he didn't leave till she was gone and they already missed each other. Too cheesy??? Well..stay away for this long and then meet your guy/girl..you'll know how hard it is!!

The four days were good...meeting him was good. Spending time with him was good. Better than good!! And in between they had their first kiss. She didn't want to give the details about this. 

And with no idea of when they'll get to meet again....she just prays that they grow stronger!! She knows they will. Because he is also not gonna let her go weak. 

The Spoiled Surprise!!

Long Distance relationship??? Aaaarrrggghhh..... just a mood spoiler when your guy/girl isn't there to share your happiness with you... to hug you whenever you need it... to just be there with you when you're upset. Irritating right?? Upsetting it is!!

What about those who start their relationship with someone who's far away. And you don't know how but you spend three months staying away from each other, well, you do lose your patience. Especially when you realize that your not gonna meet him for at least one year. God... you just go down with that!! How in hell can someone bear that??? But, in love, we do! We get this super duper magical power of waiting for as long as you have to...you just become patient!! But one year without even meeting him/her once??? Your patience blasts out!! Well...she did lose her patience.... I don't blame her!!! 

She decides to go to her friend's place and spend her day with her. They talk and update each other with everything they've been missing on and he messages her -

HIM - hey... guess what??

HER - what?? *thinking its good news*

HIM - can I call?

HER - yeah, sure.

*and he calls*

HIM - guess what..

HER - yeah?

HIM - I'm also going to Kerala in December.

HER - Ok, but I'm not sure that I'm going.

HIM - yeah, but I'm going. My parents want me to go as I've not been to Kerala for a long time now.

HER - okay.. wow!! there she goes down....**** love!! 

HIM - yeah

HER - anyways..I gotta go now, I'll talk to you later

HIM - why?

HER - she *her friends..lets not name her* is showing me something.

HIM - okay, bye

HER - bye *and that's it...she can't stop thinking about this crap*

And the worst thing... her friend has to try and cool her down now. 

She was so angry. First, it was October and it got cancelled because his placements and now the December visit is cancelled. Why did he have to tell her about it when she was with her friend? 

Oh wait... that was not it. He also added one more thing to his line... " We'll only meet after one year now". And she felt like giving him a hard one right on his face *even though it was not his fault* but she was irritated with him too. After sometime, when she still couldn't stop thinking about it, she just wanted to give him a piece of her mind and she texts him a long one. He apologized. She felt bad for being so rude with him. He called her up and apologized for spoiling her mood and told her that he'd be coming in October.

                                         

SILENCE!!! she was shocked. She couldn't believe what she just heard. Is he kidding me? she thought.

And says - what??

HIM - yeah, I'm coming. I wanted to give you a surprise but then I couldn't see you upset. I'm sorry I spoiled your mood.

HER - I'm sorry... I spoiled your surprise. *she was feeling so pathetic and cursing herself* 

HIM - its okay *he was a little down too*

HER - why did you tell me about your surprise now?

HIM - because I can't see you upset like this. And I didn't want you to be upset just because I wanted to give you a surprise and I know you'll think about it all the time and I didn't want you to spend 2 months like this.

HER - *wanting to hug him or maybe even kiss him tight* I love you

HIM - I love you too baby

and they start talking about general things.

Well..so now she knew that he was coming in October and she still feels pathetic for spoiling the surprise.

So, if you're jealous of her for having him!! "Bwaahaaahaaahahaa" on your face.

But honestly... you don't have to jealous. When you're in love.. he/she will do such beautiful things for you.

*naah... I'm just trying to be nice actually* Don't mind!!

But one thing's for sure.... You'll be in a world full of love and happiness if you find someone like him. And I'm saying that because she is just too happy with him and is head over heels for him. And she feel great!!

P.S. I still don't blame her for spoiling it!!  *eyelashes*

Holding On!!

                                                 

People tend to go all crazy when they fall in love. They start talking about thing which they once thought was stupid or they do things which they never even imagined they'd be doing. The feeling of love is different for everybody. Some describe love as passion, some describe it as a need.

For me...Love is something which cannot be described. It has no language, no boundaries. Anyone who has ever been in love would know what I'm trying to say.

                                                    Love is when you see them and you can't help but smile. Love is when the moment you see them you have this twinkle in your eyes. Love is when you go weak on your knees every time they look into your eyes and tell you that they love you. Love is when you don't want anything but to have them by your side. It is love when you'd give anything to see keep them smiling. 

                                                   I could just go on and on about love.... but the feeling is different every time. Love has many moments.....many sweet and beautiful moments. But you don't feel the good of it all the time because love can be very testing. You have to hold onto it no matter what.....and the ones who do...well they'd have no regrets. It can be bitter but in the end you get the best out of it. 

And again....she thinks about it all... she knows he is what she wants. She knows this is not going to be easy. Staying away from the one she loves....not being able to meet....thinking about the time when she'd meet him....what they'd do....and she gets all teary eyed because she knows that she's gonna have to wait a lot to be able to meet him. He tries to make her feel better and tells her to think about the time when they'd be together, when they'd be with each other and not about the time when they are apart because that is something which they can't do anything about. They both know they're gonna have to hold onto each other because its about them and its worth it.

                                  They love each other...no matter what. They get scared at times...but they don't leave it at that because love means holding onto each other just as hard as you can and there is nothing they would like better than to hold onto each other forever.

Him and Her......EVERYDAY!!!

                                                         
They may look like crazies to others...but its about him for her and her for him!! That's all they care about. And she thinks, This is what love feels like? She's in a beautiful world with him and doesn't want to get out of it. She wants him forever. She just wants to tell the whole world.
                                        The fact that they stay far away is not so pleasing for them...it upsets them...they just want to be able to meet as soon as possible. Well, God bless computers and internet and people who made things like Skype....they can video chat. They do it as much as they can. They don't get enough of it. Every time they video chat..it makes them want to be with each other all the time. They did not even think of being with each other like this even in their wildest of dreams....but you just never know. Things happen when u least expect them and Love is one of them.
                                        Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can truly turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. When something wonderful happens you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. And this is exactly the kind of relationship they share.
He is not embarrassed to cry with her when she's hurt or laugh with her when she makes a fool of herself.
He gives it his best...all that he can. He gets scared sometimes, he doesn't want to hurt her feelings in any ways....she knows he never will. He builds her up and shows her the things about herself that make her special and even beautiful. He just doesn't realize how special he is. It takes a lot to make someone feel so good about themselves...to make someone feel so loved...and he makes her feel on the top of the world. Even though they fail to express their true feelings for each other...just because they don't find the right words. But, they still know how special they are to each other and that helps them hold on to each other even when they are so away from each other.
                                       One of the best things about them is that there is no pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness and the calmness is not awkward at all. They can just be themselves with each other and not worry about what one will think of the other because they love each other for who they are. And as one crazy person she is...and he still bears her...in fact loves her is the proof of it!! But then at the same time its good for him, he'd never get bored!! Thanx to her!! He's one lucky chap. Though she's lucky too....as she never believed in relationships, he just did not have to do anything to make her believe in relationships. He was enough for her, falling in love with him was enough for her. They way he looks into her eyes is enough for her to fall for him head over heels every time.
                                        Though sometimes they get scared about their relationship and that's because of the distance between them. As he says, distance is good for a little time, not always! But at the same time they know they have to handle it, they have to manage. They have to be strong, and its just about some time..and it'll be perfectly alright. Just some patience and they'd be able to be with each other whenever they want. They know that relationships have their good times and bad times as well...they can be together in the good times and they can be together in the bad times as well. Because now that  they are in love, now that they are together, to her life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Her only hope and security is in knowing that he is a part of her life. A kind of a part which is the most special and important to her, a part she will never let go of and she knows it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be real hard. She knows they're gonna have to be patient, strong every day and she wants to be and she will be because its him who matters to her and that's all she wants. Him and her......everyday!!!

                                                     

And then they were one!!

So he was in Bangalore, working on his reports...going to college but from good morning texts to the good night texts...they were always talking!! She didn't mind disturbing him and he loved it. They just couldn't get enough of talking to each other. They didn't realize that there was maybe something more than friendship between them...or a lot more than that. It was like they knew each other since ages. They did flirt in between with their lamers. Things only they could talk and laugh about.

Since a few days, she had these negative thoughts that were disturbing her. He tried to calm her down and told her that everything would be alright. The next day she  made up her mind, she knew that thinking so much about some bullshit was not worth it. That day she was very upset about a lot more things and that just made her talk to him more. He was the only one she wanted to talk to and he did call her at night. The moment they started talking...she forgot everything she had been thinking about...she forgot everything she had been upset about and started having fun talk with him, getting teased and teasing him. That was all she waited for. That was all she wanted. Suddenly their conversation got serious and they talked about the things that had been disturbing her. She shared a lot of things with him....cried on the phone while talking to him but he could make her feel better and she was happy again in a few minutes!! 
                                 The damn balance is a problem. He got over with the balance in his phone and had to put the phone down. They continued their conversation through messages for sometime and suddenly he stopped replying and she knew that he slept off. He had this bad habit of sleeping off while texting but it was bearable for her. She put her phone down and started thinking about him and in no time she realized that she was in love with this guy. She realized that she just wants to talk to him all the time. She does something and wonders, "what would he be doing?" "what would he think?".  At that very moment she had this huge smile on her face and she started reading all his messages. All the messages in which they had flirted with each other, all the messages which showed how much he cared for her, all the messages which showed that maybe, he loved her too. But she was not sure, she thought "He may not be serious about all this, this could all be just some fun for him."
                                   The next day she woke up in the morning and she had received a message from him wishing her good morning and apologising for sleeping off at night. He did that all the time. Sleeping off while texting and then apologising the next morning. Gosh, boys will be boys! Anyways, she said it was fine and they started talking. They did not need a topic to talk about. He was enough for her and she was enough for him and they would just start talking about anything...and it lasted till they fell asleep at night..uhhmm...sorry....till HE fell asleep!!  They were talking and somehow they started talking about their feeling for each other. He opened her heart in front of her and so did she. And soon, he asked her out and how could she refuse him? She was in love with him. And they were one and happy!! They so wished they could be with each other at that time so they could hug each other and some spend some time together but they were miles away. But it was alright, they took in the right spirit.

                                       Yes, yes....they did say those three magical words to each other. A love story is always incomplete without those words. I love you, they said, she had butterflies and they both smiled.

So, now I'll continue with their love life soon. 

When its about Love.....you gotta have patience!!

They just talk

It was just another day for her...all bored, she signed into her facebook account. She checks all her notifications and all her messages from her friends and listens to some of her favourite songs. She sees that she has received a message on facebook and she checks it...and he messages her after a long time. They were not good friends as such...but they still used to be in touch.....and their conversation goes like -
HIM- Oii...wassup?? Long time re..
HER- oh yeah! long time..and nuthing holidays are going on. You tell me..wassup?
HIM - same here..back in delhi for now..got my internship going on!
Here, to know about him he's the guy from Delhi studying outside Delhi who was back in Delhi during holidays!! And so, they talk and update each other with their things. Then as usual, they start talking about relationships. The are you single or committed, no..i'm single now. Oh, seriously? I didn't know kinda talks. He was committed the last time they had a talk and now when they were talking after such a long time he tells her that he had broken up a long time back..and as she was in a relationship, she tells him so and they talk about her relationship.
                   The damn power cut problem and they exchange phone numbers. But they didn't start talking as such....they talked when they met online...and the talks continued, they opened up a little. And in between all this they get talking on the phone one night and she almost tells him all her stories and he keeps listening, just what she wanted. After talking for hours, she puts her phone down and sees 10 missed calls from her boyfriend. Oops, but somehow she didn't really care. She had a fun time talking to this amazing friend she has made, yeah, who was just listening to her stories and having fun.
                   After somedays, they met and talked and teased each other. Though mostly she was the one being teased but they still had a good time. They just never went out of a topic to talk about. So like this, they made friends with each other and he in no time was one of her good friends with whom she could be herself.
        And now it was time for him to leave Delhi. He was in the airport, waiting to check in, and she was missing him already even though they were texting. She suddenly was this emotional chick who didn't want her friend to leave.....just to be funny she sings him a song-
HER - hasta la vista, kaise kahein tumhe alvida
HIM - muh se!!
HER - saare emotions pe paani pher diya...huh
HIM - arrey, its because even i can't say bye na
HER - yeah, i know! well actually we don't even have to say bye! You were in delhi and we just met once but we talked all the time. You're gonna be in Bangalore, you'd be busy with ur classes but we'd still talk, so it's almost the same I think.
HIM - ghanta classes!!
HER- arrey, ghanta sunke I just remember one more story!
HIM - save it for tonight!!
      So, he reached Bangalore and called her up...and it was like he never left Delhi. They still talked all the time and it was the best of the times they were having!!

The story will continue...I just don't feel like typing anymore!!!
P.S. They call each other their soulmates because they have so much in common....and there still is a lot more to discover!!!

Last Year of Schooling and The Fear Of Board Exams!

So, 1st March to 4th April was a long and hectic time for all the students who appeared for their Board examinations. As I was one of them, I know about all the mental stress and how we wait for the last day of the exam so that we can go out and have all the fun in the world!!

No one studies for one whole year...because we feel that its the last year of schooling and we should have fun and we start giving more importance to fun and start bunking classes or start irritating the teachers by not concentrating during the class.We study, we play, we talk late nights and text late nights and we still wake up early in the morning for school. We meet each other everyday but we still never get short of things to talk about or to do. We always manage to get new pranks done on friends and teachers. Sometimes things get serious and we get suspended for a week or so, and it makes us laugh at ourselves and we say 'well, these are the things that make memories'. To be honest, Even I think that these are the things that make memories and I will always cherish my school days. All the fun I had with my friends, all the pranks we played and all the hard time our teachers gave us. The hiding from teachers while bunking classes, the warnings from school prefects and teachers due to wrong uniform and late works. These things never get old. After all, ALL THE FUN IS IN BREAKING THE RULES!!

                                                 
December arrives...and we all get excited about scribbling on the shirts...and the Farewell day....but before all that we have to go through Pre-Boards...and we somehow manage it though the result may not be good.
 Students are always found planning their Teacher's Day and Farewell and the Continuation Parties. We go shopping and spend hours in selecting a Suit or a Saree because we all want to look good on the farewell Day. And finally when the day arrives, we get busy in dressing up, going to school and meeting the teachers and complimenting each other. And soon after the farewell, if there's a continuation party organized then we dance our life out there. We get involved in it so much that we don't even get to know when and where all that time vanished away.

 And finally, after the farewell...we start scratching our heads because then we have to study for THE BOARDS! Our parents start blackmailing us, and we get all the pressure of the world on our heads. And as we start studying, one hour feels like one day! It gets difficult for us to sit at a place and keep studying for hours and we start cursing the Board system!! (Every student does!) We all wait for the last day of our exams so that we can throw all our books away and have some fun again. And we get the freedom to have fun. We hangout, we talk late nights, watch movies, we do everything that we had stopped doing because of exams. And we feel fresh and alive again!

But what after Boards??
Its College admissions...filling up college forms.....entrance exams.....and the most of all......its the BOARD Result and we start biting our nails!
So, for all the people out there who appeared for their Board exams this year....have fun!! And All the best for your results!! And fill up all the forms you see....you'll get an admission in any one of them! Don't be stressed about that! We don't like it! Do we??                        
Cheerios!!