On His Day!!

She started thinking almost a month before about what she could do for him on his day...on his birthday! Now that he was not too far away from her, she wanted to do something for him. She tried to save money, thought she could gift him a t-shirt or maybe his favorite headphones. Then she realized her pocket money would not be enough, but she tried to save anyway, but it just did not happen. She was sad and worried because she really wanted to do something for him. She could have made a journal for him but then they wouldn't have had as many pages for the journal because they were in a long distance for a year and she needed quite a few pictures with him to complete a journal. And so she dropped the plan of making a journal for sometime. She kept thinking and thinking and thinking and could not come up with an idea. She got upset. Thinking was not one of her best things. Every time she thought about something so much she would end up getting upset, because obviously, too much of thinking does no good to anybody. She kept asking her friends to give her some ideas but none of them could help her. She knew he would not expect anything for all he cared about was her being there for him and her love for him, but she wanted to something anyways. She wanted to be able to do something special for him but it seemed like her plans were ruined.

A week before his birthday, all she would talk about was his birthday, her friends were bored and she wanted to shut up but her excitement could be seen on her face and her friends would tease her. And then just a day before his birthday, she started thinking of the words she would say while wishing him at midnight, but nothing seemed to be right, nothing seemed to be perfect. Anything done for him was always too less. An hour before midnight, she started getting restless, she just wanted to call him up and wanted to be able to talk to him. She wished her family wasn't around so that she could wish him and talk to him properly. And she waited... 20 minutes before midnight, she called him up and they talked about random stuff and she suddenly felt nervous, she went all blank, did not remember anything she wanted to say to him...but she didn't let it show...

Finally, at midnight, she wished him and came up with a stupid birthday song and after singing she felt stupid, like a kid. "What was that?" she thought to herself. It was his birthday and that would have possibly been the worst way of wishing anybody. But something made him smile and she was happy about that. He had to keep the phone down because his friends had started calling and they called it a night. In the morning, while she was getting ready to go out, she kept thinking about him. She missed him, wanted to be with him on his day. She still thought of things she could still do for him but nothing worked. She missed him all day and thought about him. He was with his family atleast, he would be having fun and that is enough. "He should have a good day with or without me on his day" she thought but she still couldn't let it go. She so badly wanted to do something for him, that her mind just did not leave the thought of him.

And suddenly she said to herself "I never did so much of thinking for any guy..why am I thinking about him so much, Yes, I love him but...is that how love makes you feel every time, like you want to keep them happy somehow, want to be able to do something every time?" But this stupid love struck girl was stupid enough to not let go of it...and finally she did something, which she still wonders if he'd like it.

So, she still did not stop thinking. Now she had something else to think about. "What if he doesn't like it? Is this good enough for a birthday?" And like always....she kept thinking. The job she does best but it does no good for her.

The Spoiled Surprise!!

Long Distance relationship??? Aaaarrrggghhh..... just a mood spoiler when your guy/girl isn't there to share your happiness with you... to hug you whenever you need it... to just be there with you when you're upset. Irritating right?? Upsetting it is!!

What about those who start their relationship with someone who's far away. And you don't know how but you spend three months staying away from each other, well, you do lose your patience. Especially when you realize that your not gonna meet him for at least one year. God... you just go down with that!! How in hell can someone bear that??? But, in love, we do! We get this super duper magical power of waiting for as long as you have to...you just become patient!! But one year without even meeting him/her once??? Your patience blasts out!! Well...she did lose her patience.... I don't blame her!!! 

She decides to go to her friend's place and spend her day with her. They talk and update each other with everything they've been missing on and he messages her -

HIM - hey... guess what??

HER - what?? *thinking its good news*

HIM - can I call?

HER - yeah, sure.

*and he calls*

HIM - guess what..

HER - yeah?

HIM - I'm also going to Kerala in December.

HER - Ok, but I'm not sure that I'm going.

HIM - yeah, but I'm going. My parents want me to go as I've not been to Kerala for a long time now.

HER - okay.. wow!! there she goes down....**** love!! 

HIM - yeah

HER - anyways..I gotta go now, I'll talk to you later

HIM - why?

HER - she *her friends..lets not name her* is showing me something.

HIM - okay, bye

HER - bye *and that's it...she can't stop thinking about this crap*

And the worst thing... her friend has to try and cool her down now. 

She was so angry. First, it was October and it got cancelled because his placements and now the December visit is cancelled. Why did he have to tell her about it when she was with her friend? 

Oh wait... that was not it. He also added one more thing to his line... " We'll only meet after one year now". And she felt like giving him a hard one right on his face *even though it was not his fault* but she was irritated with him too. After sometime, when she still couldn't stop thinking about it, she just wanted to give him a piece of her mind and she texts him a long one. He apologized. She felt bad for being so rude with him. He called her up and apologized for spoiling her mood and told her that he'd be coming in October.

                                         

SILENCE!!! she was shocked. She couldn't believe what she just heard. Is he kidding me? she thought.

And says - what??

HIM - yeah, I'm coming. I wanted to give you a surprise but then I couldn't see you upset. I'm sorry I spoiled your mood.

HER - I'm sorry... I spoiled your surprise. *she was feeling so pathetic and cursing herself* 

HIM - its okay *he was a little down too*

HER - why did you tell me about your surprise now?

HIM - because I can't see you upset like this. And I didn't want you to be upset just because I wanted to give you a surprise and I know you'll think about it all the time and I didn't want you to spend 2 months like this.

HER - *wanting to hug him or maybe even kiss him tight* I love you

HIM - I love you too baby

and they start talking about general things.

Well..so now she knew that he was coming in October and she still feels pathetic for spoiling the surprise.

So, if you're jealous of her for having him!! "Bwaahaaahaaahahaa" on your face.

But honestly... you don't have to jealous. When you're in love.. he/she will do such beautiful things for you.

*naah... I'm just trying to be nice actually* Don't mind!!

But one thing's for sure.... You'll be in a world full of love and happiness if you find someone like him. And I'm saying that because she is just too happy with him and is head over heels for him. And she feel great!!

P.S. I still don't blame her for spoiling it!!  *eyelashes*

Holding On!!

                                                 

People tend to go all crazy when they fall in love. They start talking about thing which they once thought was stupid or they do things which they never even imagined they'd be doing. The feeling of love is different for everybody. Some describe love as passion, some describe it as a need.

For me...Love is something which cannot be described. It has no language, no boundaries. Anyone who has ever been in love would know what I'm trying to say.

                                                    Love is when you see them and you can't help but smile. Love is when the moment you see them you have this twinkle in your eyes. Love is when you go weak on your knees every time they look into your eyes and tell you that they love you. Love is when you don't want anything but to have them by your side. It is love when you'd give anything to see keep them smiling. 

                                                   I could just go on and on about love.... but the feeling is different every time. Love has many moments.....many sweet and beautiful moments. But you don't feel the good of it all the time because love can be very testing. You have to hold onto it no matter what.....and the ones who do...well they'd have no regrets. It can be bitter but in the end you get the best out of it. 

And again....she thinks about it all... she knows he is what she wants. She knows this is not going to be easy. Staying away from the one she loves....not being able to meet....thinking about the time when she'd meet him....what they'd do....and she gets all teary eyed because she knows that she's gonna have to wait a lot to be able to meet him. He tries to make her feel better and tells her to think about the time when they'd be together, when they'd be with each other and not about the time when they are apart because that is something which they can't do anything about. They both know they're gonna have to hold onto each other because its about them and its worth it.

                                  They love each other...no matter what. They get scared at times...but they don't leave it at that because love means holding onto each other just as hard as you can and there is nothing they would like better than to hold onto each other forever.

Him and Her......EVERYDAY!!!

                                                         
They may look like crazies to others...but its about him for her and her for him!! That's all they care about. And she thinks, This is what love feels like? She's in a beautiful world with him and doesn't want to get out of it. She wants him forever. She just wants to tell the whole world.
                                        The fact that they stay far away is not so pleasing for them...it upsets them...they just want to be able to meet as soon as possible. Well, God bless computers and internet and people who made things like Skype....they can video chat. They do it as much as they can. They don't get enough of it. Every time they video chat..it makes them want to be with each other all the time. They did not even think of being with each other like this even in their wildest of dreams....but you just never know. Things happen when u least expect them and Love is one of them.
                                        Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can truly turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. When something wonderful happens you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. And this is exactly the kind of relationship they share.
He is not embarrassed to cry with her when she's hurt or laugh with her when she makes a fool of herself.
He gives it his best...all that he can. He gets scared sometimes, he doesn't want to hurt her feelings in any ways....she knows he never will. He builds her up and shows her the things about herself that make her special and even beautiful. He just doesn't realize how special he is. It takes a lot to make someone feel so good about themselves...to make someone feel so loved...and he makes her feel on the top of the world. Even though they fail to express their true feelings for each other...just because they don't find the right words. But, they still know how special they are to each other and that helps them hold on to each other even when they are so away from each other.
                                       One of the best things about them is that there is no pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness and the calmness is not awkward at all. They can just be themselves with each other and not worry about what one will think of the other because they love each other for who they are. And as one crazy person she is...and he still bears her...in fact loves her is the proof of it!! But then at the same time its good for him, he'd never get bored!! Thanx to her!! He's one lucky chap. Though she's lucky too....as she never believed in relationships, he just did not have to do anything to make her believe in relationships. He was enough for her, falling in love with him was enough for her. They way he looks into her eyes is enough for her to fall for him head over heels every time.
                                        Though sometimes they get scared about their relationship and that's because of the distance between them. As he says, distance is good for a little time, not always! But at the same time they know they have to handle it, they have to manage. They have to be strong, and its just about some time..and it'll be perfectly alright. Just some patience and they'd be able to be with each other whenever they want. They know that relationships have their good times and bad times as well...they can be together in the good times and they can be together in the bad times as well. Because now that  they are in love, now that they are together, to her life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Her only hope and security is in knowing that he is a part of her life. A kind of a part which is the most special and important to her, a part she will never let go of and she knows it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be real hard. She knows they're gonna have to be patient, strong every day and she wants to be and she will be because its him who matters to her and that's all she wants. Him and her......everyday!!!

                                                     

And then they were one!!

So he was in Bangalore, working on his reports...going to college but from good morning texts to the good night texts...they were always talking!! She didn't mind disturbing him and he loved it. They just couldn't get enough of talking to each other. They didn't realize that there was maybe something more than friendship between them...or a lot more than that. It was like they knew each other since ages. They did flirt in between with their lamers. Things only they could talk and laugh about.

Since a few days, she had these negative thoughts that were disturbing her. He tried to calm her down and told her that everything would be alright. The next day she  made up her mind, she knew that thinking so much about some bullshit was not worth it. That day she was very upset about a lot more things and that just made her talk to him more. He was the only one she wanted to talk to and he did call her at night. The moment they started talking...she forgot everything she had been thinking about...she forgot everything she had been upset about and started having fun talk with him, getting teased and teasing him. That was all she waited for. That was all she wanted. Suddenly their conversation got serious and they talked about the things that had been disturbing her. She shared a lot of things with him....cried on the phone while talking to him but he could make her feel better and she was happy again in a few minutes!! 
                                 The damn balance is a problem. He got over with the balance in his phone and had to put the phone down. They continued their conversation through messages for sometime and suddenly he stopped replying and she knew that he slept off. He had this bad habit of sleeping off while texting but it was bearable for her. She put her phone down and started thinking about him and in no time she realized that she was in love with this guy. She realized that she just wants to talk to him all the time. She does something and wonders, "what would he be doing?" "what would he think?".  At that very moment she had this huge smile on her face and she started reading all his messages. All the messages in which they had flirted with each other, all the messages which showed how much he cared for her, all the messages which showed that maybe, he loved her too. But she was not sure, she thought "He may not be serious about all this, this could all be just some fun for him."
                                   The next day she woke up in the morning and she had received a message from him wishing her good morning and apologising for sleeping off at night. He did that all the time. Sleeping off while texting and then apologising the next morning. Gosh, boys will be boys! Anyways, she said it was fine and they started talking. They did not need a topic to talk about. He was enough for her and she was enough for him and they would just start talking about anything...and it lasted till they fell asleep at night..uhhmm...sorry....till HE fell asleep!!  They were talking and somehow they started talking about their feeling for each other. He opened her heart in front of her and so did she. And soon, he asked her out and how could she refuse him? She was in love with him. And they were one and happy!! They so wished they could be with each other at that time so they could hug each other and some spend some time together but they were miles away. But it was alright, they took in the right spirit.

                                       Yes, yes....they did say those three magical words to each other. A love story is always incomplete without those words. I love you, they said, she had butterflies and they both smiled.

So, now I'll continue with their love life soon. 

When its about Love.....you gotta have patience!!

They just talk

It was just another day for her...all bored, she signed into her facebook account. She checks all her notifications and all her messages from her friends and listens to some of her favourite songs. She sees that she has received a message on facebook and she checks it...and he messages her after a long time. They were not good friends as such...but they still used to be in touch.....and their conversation goes like -
HIM- Oii...wassup?? Long time re..
HER- oh yeah! long time..and nuthing holidays are going on. You tell me..wassup?
HIM - same here..back in delhi for now..got my internship going on!
Here, to know about him he's the guy from Delhi studying outside Delhi who was back in Delhi during holidays!! And so, they talk and update each other with their things. Then as usual, they start talking about relationships. The are you single or committed, no..i'm single now. Oh, seriously? I didn't know kinda talks. He was committed the last time they had a talk and now when they were talking after such a long time he tells her that he had broken up a long time back..and as she was in a relationship, she tells him so and they talk about her relationship.
                   The damn power cut problem and they exchange phone numbers. But they didn't start talking as such....they talked when they met online...and the talks continued, they opened up a little. And in between all this they get talking on the phone one night and she almost tells him all her stories and he keeps listening, just what she wanted. After talking for hours, she puts her phone down and sees 10 missed calls from her boyfriend. Oops, but somehow she didn't really care. She had a fun time talking to this amazing friend she has made, yeah, who was just listening to her stories and having fun.
                   After somedays, they met and talked and teased each other. Though mostly she was the one being teased but they still had a good time. They just never went out of a topic to talk about. So like this, they made friends with each other and he in no time was one of her good friends with whom she could be herself.
        And now it was time for him to leave Delhi. He was in the airport, waiting to check in, and she was missing him already even though they were texting. She suddenly was this emotional chick who didn't want her friend to leave.....just to be funny she sings him a song-
HER - hasta la vista, kaise kahein tumhe alvida
HIM - muh se!!
HER - saare emotions pe paani pher diya...huh
HIM - arrey, its because even i can't say bye na
HER - yeah, i know! well actually we don't even have to say bye! You were in delhi and we just met once but we talked all the time. You're gonna be in Bangalore, you'd be busy with ur classes but we'd still talk, so it's almost the same I think.
HIM - ghanta classes!!
HER- arrey, ghanta sunke I just remember one more story!
HIM - save it for tonight!!
      So, he reached Bangalore and called her up...and it was like he never left Delhi. They still talked all the time and it was the best of the times they were having!!

The story will continue...I just don't feel like typing anymore!!!
P.S. They call each other their soulmates because they have so much in common....and there still is a lot more to discover!!!